another one week plus and is a day that i been looking forward to, but i don feel excited.. :(
anyway, jus wanna wish down wad i want for my birthday this year. hope that some mayb be possible..
BIRTHDAY WISHES:
1. A pair og gloves (for playing handball, reali hope to have this..)
2. A new bag (shoulder bag, must be long and big to put lots of things and not look bulky.. ned to have this too.. current bag is SPOILT!!)
3. Clothes..
4. 3-Wheel foldable bicycle!!
5. Ipod Touch
6. IPhone
 

went to school today..
collected some profile report..
this is wad it says:
At a glance:
1. Does not like too many work demands, prefers to work at own pace.
2. Does not strive to complete tasks, prepared to leave work unfinished.
3. Expresses emotions and needs attention. Tends to be concerned with own opinions and feelings.
4. Empathetic, understanding, helpful and supportive.
5. Outgoing and likes compnay of people.
6. Faithful, trustworthy and devoted in long-term relationships.
7. Does not seek positions of power or authority.
8. Less inclined to decide how and what needs to be done ahead of schedule.
9. Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain.

How would i fit into work and with the people around? :

Putting in long hours to meet the demands at work is not your preference. You do not like torush around doing things and may feel demotivated if work encroaches on your personal life. Despite this, you may be pepared to put in extra effort if it is on a short-term basis.

Although you are relatively dependable to deliver results on time, you may at times be late in meeting deadlines.

Initiating plans and ideas are easy enough but you may not persist with the tasks until completion. You are prepared to leave tasks unfinshed when you lose interest and focus. For this reason, shor-ter assignments may suit you better.

You are able to produce work that is moderately high in quality but may at times be careless.

You are passionate, romantic and warm. Being an emotional person, you will find it hard to conceal your feelings. You want to be around people and seek attention from them. As your emotional needs are high, you tend to be the 'taker'in a relationship and make decisions based on your feelings and opinions.

People will describe you as charitable, tolerant,understanding and forgiving because you are sympathetic and considerate towards others. You show concern for people's welfare and readily help others, providing a listening ear and support when needed.

You enjoy the company of your friendss and like to make new friends. You are not shy or awkward when meeting people for the first time and fit well into most social groups. People will descirbe you as approachable, amiable and out-going.

You are the sort of person who forms long term bonds with people who mean alot to you. You are protective of those you love. In such relationships, you tend to be faithful, trusting and devoted. Others will be able to see that you are a patriotic and dutiful person.

I feel that it is 98 percent true..
anyway, jus found put that you're sick..
hope you will rest well and get well soon..
hope to see you looking well and energetic tmr..
:)

argh..
crapness..
total bullshit..
im so fucking bored..
no replies to the questions i asked on msn..
tried to DL song but cant..
trying to see who is free to go out wif me tmr and don seem to find one..
felling hurt that u dn reply to me on msn..
going crazy as i type this post..
feeling ignored..
asking myself why the hell am i suffering jus to get a reply??
dunno wad to say..
jus gonna wait for replies..
AND I WILL SAY FUCK YOU IF YOU DON REPLY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don care u who, big small, short tall, FUCK YOU!!

never blog for one whole week liao..
jus came back from camp yesterday..
and ABRAHAM won!!
how i wished that everyday im in camp..
during the camp was so high, having so much fun..
don reali have much time to think of you..
can joke wif the young people there..
see their happy faces, getting to know more new frens..
but once im back home, everything seems different..
i seem to be thinking of you all the time..
would be all rite if terry was at home, but he is currently in a camp..
so i have no ways to stop thinking of you..
currently loking for a part time job as well to work during the holidays..
to earn some money..

now let talk bout the camp!
DAY 1
did not sleep the previous nite..
gideon came in a cab to fetch me at around 6am and we cabbed down to vivo to take train to serangoon..
suppose to meet up wif the rest at 730am, but we reached at 645am..
so walked to the nearby coffeeshop to hav some drinks, gideon's treat..
den bought teh bing siu dai for faji..
walk to the bus stop and took the bus down to paya lebar methodist girls' school (primary)
went to do the registration, and the camp started with cheers..
supposing of going to the camp was to serve, to help out..
did help out some things..
played games wif my beloved house ABRAHAM!!
went to sleep at 2am..

DAY 2
gosh..
i reali have to kill myself..
i woke up at 12pm..
when we are suppose to wake up @ 730am as at 8am there was a prayer meeting..
and i skipped a session too..
oh no..
here comes the joke..
janet said that she was trying to call me up, so she poked me..
den she said that i told her to leave me alone and stop poking me, as i want to sleep because previous day never sleep, if not i will smack her..
and she said that i did!
and there was many witnesses to prove..
gosh..
so now i know..
do not wake me up when im sleeping, i will get angry..
so half a day was wasted by sleeping..
quickly washed up and went down to th canteen to have lunch..
ran out of food when i came down, den jnet gave me her plate of fried rice..
so good rite..
she say cos she going to school can eat outside..
den the nite session was crazy!!
had the PROJECT RUNWAY, and once again, ABRAHAM won!!
will upload the pic of the PROJECT RUNWAY couple which represent our house ABRAHAM!!
we are so proud of them!
pastor zhuang preach for that session..
was a great word..
then we contiune wif praise..
was super crazy..
went in front and jump up onto the platform and starting jumping up and down praising God wif the singing of praise songs..
den edwin did body surf..
so did pastor..
was so super duper high..
den went back to the bunk and started talking to some of the new frens that i known..
they are a fun and loving bunch of people..
always laughing to wadeva i said..
ended up they were hungry and wanted mac..
but ned to lights out at 12am..
den i tried asking the leader, she say can..
den order.. den later say cancel but the deliveryman on the way liao..
so bo pian..
we can eat..
keep rushing us go sleep..
got motive one..
so we slept at 1+am..
suddenly at 2+am, CGLs come bang doors, shouting '"WAKE UP, WAKE UP"
obviously i super angry la..
but i din join the activity, was taking care of a 12 year old girl who was injured in the afternoon..
they came back around 5+..
went back to sleep..

DAY 3
woke up and went for prayer meeting..
den went to eat breakfast..
den went for the final session..
this time is faji preaching..
he preached a good word..
so before the session ended, did a activity and a total of 110 new frens are coming for the celebrity weekend..
den was the award presentation..
was actually quite surprized to see the scores..
the other 3 house has a score of 600+
but ABRAHAM had a score of 800+
which is a difference of 200 points..
and every single person in the house got a cert..
and there we ended the camp taking photos and clearing up the place..

that is a long post..
gonna play solitaire while thinking of you and listeng to 987fm..
buhbyes!!

exams are finally over and here comes the holidays..
gonna go to my cousin's house tmr..
a miracle that my aunt allowed me to go..
usually she doesnt seem happy to be hearing that im going over, but she allowed for later on..
im so gonna have fun playing and joking with terry..
anyway, yesterday's paper was a disaster..
wad i studied did not come out..
and stupid bashah said that it was easy when he did not even study!!
dunno he human or alien..
FB is kinda boring for me now..
restaraunt city is lagging, so i stopped playing..
focusing on barn buddy and farm town now..
but farm town takes a long while to harvest..
don wanna plant grapes, as i wont be using com 24 hours..
and iz harvest every 4 hours..
barn buddy is slow too..
so many stage to go thru..
anyway, tink that is all for this post..
got a job lobang??
please tell me..
tmr there's the shield painting at sengkang..
nice move.
so far, but nehmind..
gotta go now..
buhbyes!!

bored..
sleepy..
tired..
having service later on..
dunno meeting up with candice or not..
see how lor..
exams starting on monday..
till wed, and iz the bloody hols!!
ned a job, part time..
kinda lazy to blog nowadays..
been playing games on FB..
mafia wars, restaraunt city, farm town, barn buddy, biotronics..
quite happy with my current results..
mayb i can study, jus that sec school nv reali studied..
if can get a overall grade of B for every since module, i happy..
5 days after exams having camp!!
excited to be there, but worrying bout the money and te camp shirt..
previous camp paid the money and did not get a shirt..
super angry la..
hope i better have the shirt..
don wanna be the onli one out wearing sth different..
stupid stupid..
changing back to english songs once again..
lost interest in chinese..
days passed with boredom with it every single day..
go school, go home..
no going out, no fun, no luchies..
going back home to a loner again..
hols are coming..
will there be a day of fun with jus some of us??
not all, i will emo..
sometimes, i wonder..
if you ned to talk to ##, jus tell me..
i wont interupt you and ##..
why must ask me to take a different mode of transport back home??
in the end, took the bus, i sat at thelower deck and both of you went up the upper deck..
was going on fine till ## called me asking me if i wanna go up..
im like thot ** say wanna talk to you??
why ask me if i wan go up??
## replied me say they talk finish le..
BULLSHIT!!!
when oh when??
when will be the right day, right time??
to hav time to ourself, no distractions, no interruptions..
DIE DIE!!
ned to rmb taking my knife set back home on wed..
if not hols no ned to bake cake liao..
tink gonna go and sleep now..
buhbyes!!

how to you show ur love o the person you like when the person doesnt even know you exist??
sometimes, i jus wanna talk to you, but iz almost impossible..
you're always being surrounded..
sometimes jus trying to get close to you, burns up all my energy and im emo-ing..
you're jus a reach away, but whenever i stretch my hand out, you draw further away..
jus ask o hold you close for once..
to spend time alone wif you, to share burdens, share joy..
you seem busy almost everyday, but wad can i do??
studies are important to you, you wanna give it ur best shot..
to juggle interest and studies is hard..
but i wanna help you, to life this heavy burden off you..
but it seems that im not elping not one bit..
would it be better if i jus leave you alone, do wadeva you wanna do, without me there??
jus have one wish. to be able to see ur smile everyday..
 

a short post before im back to my studying again..
gonna have test the next day.
wans to and feels like studying..
but somehow, i jus cant study at home alone..
without the laptop and tv around..
or mayb im not even into the studying mood..
everybody is busy in their own things..
cant expect you or any of the rest to be free whenever i ask..
and fuck hell, im feeling tired now!!
crapness..
i shall stop here..
STUDY!!!!!!
i wan to see Renesmee!!
see wad she dreams..
sounds like a lovely child to me..

hais..
i tink i will fail my prac test..
was actually starting the test quite well..
until my kitchen partner was late..
den she do thing also veri slow..
den i must wait for her to finish den can bake the cake together..
i wanna change partner..
but who can i change with??
i don tink i can stand it anymore..
if tis carries on, will i fail every single prac test??
it is suppose to be individual test and cos not enough oven, i have to wait and i fail..
why cant the test be held with jus 8 person a group??
but iz over already..
jus hope that i can pass..
i don wan to fail my prac test..
and will someone jus be my listening ear??
feeling sleepy now..
gonna take a nap..
byes..

freak hell the morning rain..
left the house at 720..
standard time from my house to sck take around 20 mins the most..
ending up in sck at 845am!!
wth..
took a bus to dover, waited so freaking long for a bus to my sck..
bus came, on the way one stop before clementi mrt station that bus stop..
ned to get down of the bus..
cos the bus befind got smoke..
ARGH!!
den wait for bus again..
bus come..
board the bus and stuck at in the middle lane of the road fo whole 10 mins..
hais..
butlucky for me, mdm din scold..
and i thank God for his power..
was late for class for whole 45 mins..
but did quite well during the practical..
im happy for once..
i realised im not so slo after all..
haha..
now im stressing again..
ned to plan a worksheet for th upcoming phase test tis comin fri..
and i ned to find a camera for wed!!
ask frm u 2 the recipes forthe portfolio and you keep telling me tmr..
how did i end up having u 2 in my group??
i wan a individual project instead..
now i realise, one for all is a loss for me..
i shouldgo for one for none..
to get my target..
bring the rest down..
will not really do it, unless you force my hand..
suddenly urge to buy a basketball..
a form of excercise for myself..
gonna use my mind to plan for the workshet now..

mayb you dunno me well, or is jus you cant accept the fact that i forgive people easily?
well, double faced you may called it..
but somhow, one has to learn to let go too rite??
i did mention bout the things, but somehow, over the time, iz over..
if you continue to think over it again and again, it does not really help, as all the things are in the negative state..
sometimes i would reali like to say that im super stressed..
not jus you alone..
i did all i can to be ur listening ear..
but somehow, were you ever my listening ear??
sck has been freaking stressful since it opened after the sck holidays..
project for asian sweet to be submitted soon and im the the onli freaking person in the group doing researchs and typing out both portfolio and power point sides..
and phase test this coming fri..
den another phase test..
den still got a few more theory test to be taken..
den june is exam already..
with a super stressful life, wit no one to notce that im tired..
tired of being ur listening ear..
tired of being lectured at..
call me double faced, dog, or wadeva you call it..
somehow, iz onli you, you and you..
somehow, i feel like giving up..
the cg turns ot this way..
sck turns ouit this way..
when will i ever have  life ever so peaceful..
more happiness than sadness..
somwhow, the world's spinning and im falling..
the more it spins, the deeper im falling into a pit..
a pit which will be covered back up and im buried in it..
to end this off, if you wanna catergorized me under the double faced, dog or wadeva..
jus go ahead..
cos the fren that i known is not the same afterall..

service wads GREAT!!
it was a very different way of preaching..
in the form of story-telling, which made it way interesting for me to not end up sleeping..
love reali is a choice, a decision..
feeling very happy today..
firstly, i din tok much wif the cg today..
had time to spend time alone, myself..
enjoying the music, which i was being taken the right to listen whenever im with them..
and finally, enjoying long bus rides again!!
had to go from boon lay to pasir ris to meet bashah to take notes on cake mixing and baking..
but at 7+ he's not back from malaysia yet..
so took a train down to CCK wif qiyin while wei quan contiune to take train down to YCK..
waited for bus 67 to take a bus down to tampines..
felt happy to b listening to music, sleeping and reading torybook on that long bus ride..
reali enjoyed it..
reached tampines, took a bus down to bashah's house..
collected the notes and took a bus down to pasir ris interchange..
sms my mom if i could take bus home instead of the train and she allowed!!
coolness..
so took 12 to chinatown and change to 33..
reached home at about 1230am..
mom din scold..
cos i ask permission..
sorry to the people who thot that i was emo-ing wen im not..
haha..
jus trying to enjoy the time being myself wif no restrictions..

and i do not know the reason why you din keep my seat or wadeva reason..
but i don tink that you are that stupid in maths are you??
could not be that there was not enough seats..
you could jus say the truth if you gave the seat up..
but don tell me that you're sorry cos not enough seats..
im not gonna fall for that crap..
be truthful and nothing happens..
dare to lie, pay for consequences..
set the rule, abide by the rule..
die to play, play to die..
wanna take on a challenge??
do thing by the way it does, and you can keep that life, if not, pay for it!

don reali like blog is days..
feel veri veri sian..
no life..
sooner or later become chi dai..
chi dai also good la..
become so quiet onli hear ppl toking.
ask me do thing go orh onli..
stop here liao..
nothing to say..
bye~
CHI DAI!!

went for cgm today..
the presene of God was super strong..
after the meting, i was very pissed with a few people..
talk so loud, donno how to play guitar keep playing, den keep playing piano..
i cant imagine that wen somebody is reading, or studying,you cannot keep ur voices lor or wad..
if u are reali smart, i consider that u have the heart to quieten down..
but freaking hell no..
all the more u tok louder..
totally ignoring the rest of us..
if as poly students, u do not have shame in u..
i tink is a waste that u are in polys..
somehow..
a bunch of fools together wif other fools to be a siller fool..
have the cheek to act like u veri good in studies can go poly..
but in actual fact, u jus went in by luck..
cos more students decide to go ite rather than poly..
not saying that poly is bad..
but u people who go in, pollutes the poly, shames the reputation of the polyst in singapore..
hais..
dunno wad the hell are these people thinking..
come in onli give those look..
wan fight ah??
if u have the guts, bring it on..
but i doubt u will..
freaking gays..
don reali wanna wish to talk bout it liao..
mother nagging..
say me here and there..
cant stand it liao..
hais..
 

went to sck today..
was late for awhile..
but lucky teacher never scold..
the previous pratical i was not in sck..
so i did not make the sponge cakes..
so i ended up wif no cak to do icing for thr fruit flan..
so had to quickly bake the cake..
but luckly, i managed to fnish baking and icing and putting the fruits process by 1pm..
den quickly went home wif the cake..
teacher let us bring home the cake without cutting it..
cos she ay she scare the fruis drop..
but mine din...
so iz alrite..
but cos i also nv cut..
haha..
reached home, put the cake in the fridge..
wanted to eat, but tahan until my mother come back home, den eat together wif my sis..
my mother say nice, not too sweet..
den my sis eat den ask my mother don wan cook dinner..
cos she wan eat the cake onli..
den in the end cannot..
so mother go cook dinner..
i feel like eating all the cake, mother don let..
sadded..
quite happy today..
was chatting to eunice on msn..
she started sck liao..
missed the times in sec sck..
wen i jus talk, den she will laugh and happy liao..
den she say she missed me..
so mayb meetng up soon bahs..
pei her go window shop..
nothing much hapenned today..
onli like alot people veri busy..
den i super bored no one tok to..
even not busy also don wan tok to me one..
hais..
hope tmr will be a better day..